I Quit My Job. Now What?...

After almost three years of working as a court clerk, I decided to step down from my position and quit my job. Why did I do this? So that I can focus on being a full time YouTuber. 

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

I wish that were the case. But no. I quit because in less than two weeks from now, I will be attending law school. There are many reasons as to why I decided to subject myself to three years of sleepless nights, endless reading assignments and essays, and gorging on ramen noodles for dinner because yo boi is unemployed now.  One, I've always been interested in learning about the law. Two, there are many lucrative career options available for those with a JD. And three, I could help those who have been victims of crime receive justice. However, one reason stands above them all at the moment. That reason being, I want to be able to defend myself against the injustices in the world should I have to. If I am ever illegally pulled over and harassed by corrupt police officers (and survive), I want to know exactly how I can legally bring them to their knees. If a family member or a friend is harmed by corrupt police officers, I want to be able to help them receive justice. 

Future photo of me in law school. You know, if I were a bad bitch...

I have to say, I am very nervous about law school. Constantly worried that I won't be able to hack it. That I'm not smart enough. That I quit my job and joined the unemployment club for nothing. You know how long it took me to find work after I graduated college the first time? If you don't, check out my first blog post. That was one depressing ass chapter in my life that I do not wish to repeat. Geez, I haven't even started law school yet, and the devil is already trying to scare me into quitting. 

I'm a worrywart. It's what I do. And I've been worrywarting all over the place for a week now. However, I am not backing down from my decision. Oh yes, I am staying the course. I believe that when you take risk in life, it's only natural that you may feel a sense of dread about it. But you can't let that feeling stop you. You have to fight through that shit. I have so many goals I want to achieve in life, and I've let the fear of attempting them stop me for so long.

So many goals. I have stayed stagnant for too many years now and I am tired of that. I want to feel like I have accomplished things in life and right now I don't. When I die, what are people going to say about me? I know what I'd like for them to say. "Here lies ASdeclassified, a successful attorney, an amazing writer, crazy soap opera actor, and one of the best Power Rangers vloggers to EVAH do the damn thing!"

Well if I want the accomplishments, I need to start putting in the work now. No more procrastinating. No more excuses. No more wavering. 

Time to conquer Earth.

Some Life Goals of Mine

Well, 2016 is here. I feel that this year is going to lead to many interesting and fundamental changes in my life. Lately I have been thinking about some of the goals that I want to accomplish before the Grim Reaper pays me a visit.



I thought it would be cool to write a blog post listing out these goals. Then in a few years or so, I'll click back to this post to see if I actually did any of the shit I said I wanted to. I'm going to be depressed as hell if I read this post in five years and I haven't met at least one of these goals. Well, anyway, let's get this list going.

1. Go to Law School



This has been one of my main goals in life since I was in middle school. Learning about the law and legal proceedings has always been fascinating to me. I have worked as a court clerk for over two years now just so I could see first hand how the court system operates. However, I am a bit apprehensive about going. Mostly because of finances. This shit will not be cheap. I'm trying to look at law school as an investment for my future, but right now all I can see is the strain it's going to put on me while I am trying to reach said future.

And yet, every time I hear about another unarmed black person being killed, the resulting rage I feel makes me want to pursue a career in law. I mainly want to be an attorney so that I can help fight against civil and criminal injustice. I want to study the law, change the law, and create law that leads to the betterment of all people. Especially minorities. Black. Lives. Matter.

2. Write a Book. Or Several Books. Just Write Something



I love to write. Well I say I do, but I engage in the craft so sporadically that I don't even think people believe me anymore. Sometimes I don't even believe myself. But I swear I do. I just suck at time management. I have been working on the same 2-3 stories on and off since 2007 and have not finished a single one. Last year, I decided to create a "short story". Usually my story ideas are these long "epics" that, if adapted into a TV show, could be made into 20 seasons. Like Naruto, or the Young and the Restless.

I figured that if I make the story short, I would actually have a shot at finishing it. Ha! I haven't worked on the thing in months. Well, it's time to change that. I want to have my "short story" completed by this year. No more fucking around, let's dew dis!

3. Be a Soap Actor



And now we have reached the more outlandish goals I have for myself. I grew up watching quite a few soap operas thanks to my mother. I love melodrama. I dream of the day that I can be on a soap and act a damn fool on the TV screen 5 days a week. "Yeah I fucked yo bitch, whooped yo ass, stole yo company, and if you continue to cross me, I'll end you." I want to be the badass character that everyone loves to hate. "Yes I'm evil, but there are reasons why. Cry for me!" I have no clue on how I can accomplish this goal, but whatever. Never know what the future holds.

4. Be a Successful YouTuber



So I have been playing this YouTube game since 2011. I am very lucky to have the viewers and subscribers I do have. Still, I can't help wishing I was a bigger YouTuber. Or at least making enough money off of my videos to help pay back my student loans. That's all I really want. I don't need to live off of the shit (although that would be nice too).

5. Be Rich



Not an original goal, but it is one that never goes out of style. I don't care how it happens, just let it happen Lord.

So these are some of my goals. Let's see if I can place a check mark next to at least one of them in 5 years.

Julius Explodes! Bold and the Beautiful Episode Review for 8/7/2015

Last Friday's episode of The Bold and the Beautiful was very entertaining. So entertaining that I'm writing a blog post about it.

It's Maya and Ricky Boy's wedding day! And guess who decided to make an appearance. Why Ricky's sister, Ms. Bridgette Forrester! Bridgette is rarely on this show anymore, so this was indeed a surprise. She even told her brother that this was one family occasion that she was not going to miss...

As soon as she said that, I burst out in laughter. The fuck? Let me get this straight. This bitch was too busy to be in attendance at her niece Aly's wake and funeral, but she has all the time in the world to be at her brother's third wedding? This is the more important event to go to? Bridgette, go on with this foolishness.

One of the best parts of this episode was Bill Spencer apologizing to Maya for telling her private business to the whole world. I loved this scene, not because Bill apologized (I never needed him to do that), but because Maya did not make it easy for Bill to apologize. Ms. Avant was busting Bill's balls the entire time he was asking for forgiveness, and it was great. She eventually accepted the apology, but the fact that she stood strong and called Dollar Bill out on all his bullshit made me like her. I have never really been a fan of Maya. The reason why is because she tends to let people (like Bill) treat her like trash and then she runs away without fighting back. Meanwhile, Bill Spencer is one of my favorite characters on the show. So if I'm giving Maya praise for talking crazy to Bill, you know I loved this scene. No more running for Maya.

Now the ending to this episode took the cake baby. If you are reading this post and are not aware, Maya is transgender. Her parents are very conservative and have not been in her life for a long time. Maya and her parents are now trying to mend fences, and they are present for the wedding. While Maya's mother is beginning to accept who Maya is, her father (Julius) still refuses to let go of his bigotry. During the finale scene of the episode, Julius could not hold his true feelings in anymore, and he pretty much erupted on his wife. Julius hates what his "son" has done to "his" body, and he is disgusted that he has to walk his "son" down the aisle and hand Maya off to a man. The conversation Julius was having with is wife was supposed to be private, but this is a soap opera, so you know that private conversations do not exist here. Maya ended up hearing every vicious thing her father said. She was completely crushed. I loved it. The drama was so damn good. Julius is a bastard, but if he was a great guy and completely accepting of his child, then this shit would be boring. Let him be a bigot, just as long as the show expresses that he is in the wrong.

*Side note: Julius wasn't wrong about Rick already having two ex-wives. Maya will be out the door soon. But she will be receiving some good spousal support checks, so chill.*

I am also surprised that Julius is the ONLY one that has an issue with Maya being transgender. All of the Forresters are cool with this? Really? All of these super rich white people are that progressive? It's great that they are, but I'm not sure if it's that realistic. Oh well, I'm patiently waiting for Monday's episode. August 10, 2015, let's go!